The Bible is About Trauma...(Lenten Bible Reflection 2021--Ash Wednesday)

 I have been doing Margaret Feinberg's Awestruck Lenten Bible Challenge, for now, five or six years. She has laid out a reading plan that is intense, challenging in order to read the Bible from cover to cover over the season of Lent. The plan averages about 20-30 chapters a day for six days a week. The point of this plan is to develop deep awe and to see Scripture as deep metanarratives that are intertwined. Every year I have added a different challenge by reading a translation that I do not read regularly (in the past I have used: NLT, ESV, CEB, NASB, MEV). I also have found different concepts to focus on and think about. Last year it was justice...in the past it was worship...this year, the concept is TRAUMA. Why trauma? 

I am glad you asked.

The Bible is about trauma and trauma responses. I do justice work and I write about justice and striving against injustice. I spend a lot of time thinking about injustice and historic violence. What I have realized, an old memory, an old lesson: The violence and trauma (both individualized and vicarious) that is a necessary part of justice work can produce a tautological cycle of despair and hopelessness. This is what I am entering this exercise with. I am wrestling with trauma and the work that lies ahead. I am working to ensure life is better, more equitable for everyone especially for Black, Indigenous, and other People of Color.

In order to do this...I must draw from the deep wells of my faith. For, Avadeem hayeenu, "We were once slaves." We are no longer slaves, but we are not yet free. I will close this reflection with words I wrote a year ago on FB: 

I believe every generation must answer the question, "What does it mean to be free?" (Borrowing from the great blues prophet, Nina Simone.)

In the past, the answer to that question drove our fight out of the terrible chains of slavery. It allowed us to stand in front of fire hoses. It encouraged our ancestors to thrive in the midst of deep lack and despair. We are the product of those beloved and unknown fighters. In this moment, in 2020 (2021), we are still not free. But, I feel that my expectations of what freedom is have changed, I believe freedom is nothing less than a clear trajectory to thriving. It includes access to [full] rights and privileges, but it is more than that. It is locating what Howard Thurman calls, "the final privacy of an individual" and developing that into an interconnected tapestry. Freedom is the acquisition and development of power for the benefit of dismantling systemically and systematically unjust systems and building up frameworks and systems that are equitable.

"From my childhood, I have been on the scent of the tie that binds life at a level so deep that the final privacy of the individual would be reinforced rather than threatened. I have always wanted to be me without making it difficult to be you."
Howard Thurman

Remember that you are but dust...but you matter...your tears matter...your traumas matter.

MLK Day in the Midst of the Age of Trump

King is more than a dream.

I sit here to write this forgetting that in my flurry of inspiration a couple of years ago, I had already written this piece about #ReclaimMLK (http://letterstoyoungworshippers.blogspot.com/2016/01/reflection-on-dr-king-in-era-of-post.html).

Dr. King, Jr. received his holiday fourteen years after his death and now thirty-two years ago. (We share a birth year in a way). I was furious back in 2016 (our last year with the first black president, even though I did not want to accept that fact). I was furious for so many valid reasons (Flint, Michigan still doesn’t have water and more officers have been acquitted or escaped charges.) I am still pissed about all those things. But, I am writing this the evening after our so-called president, 45, decided to call Haiti, African and African-Caribbean countries, “sh*tholes”. There is no more infuriating irony of this president, that he reveals his racism and racist political perspectives before key moments of black remembrance (see his comments about Frederick Douglass), the damn inescapable fact that 45 is going to stand and lay claim to the dream of King. He's going to lay his grubby, "sh*thole" hands on King's legacy. But, not only him, senators, representatives, governors, mayors, DA's are going to join in this bastard's chorus about the dream of King as they work to undermine black people's progress (But see, https://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/steve-alford-kansas-marijuana-black-people_us_5a53e133e4b01e1a4b18a12b?section=us_black-voices).

I want our King back!! You can't claim Martin or Fannie Lou or Rosa or Ella or Billie or none of them until you see us as fully human and fully American!!

The third Monday of January, we set about remembering Dr. King, the drum major of a movement. But, let me tell you this, King was not the only one in the band for justice. He stood on the shoulders of a long legacy of men and women who bled, cried, died, were kidnapped, bombed, broken, beaten, sprayed with water hoses, lynched and so much more. King’s shadow is long and broad. His blood still cries out from the Lorraine Hotel in Memphis and still shakes the mantle of time nearly fifty years.

So, what do I have to say now? I am glad you asked. First, if you support the theology of Trump (looking at you all you charlatans of the gospel), you do not get to hold the legacy of MLK. If you support a theology that doesn't demand your own death to self for the cause of justice you CANNOT touch the legacy of MLK and our ancestors. This bodes the question, “What am I willing to do in this era to move the dream forward?” My answer is this, I am committed to radical compassion. Compassion places a target on your back because you are willing to take the hit for someone else. It is deeper than empathy...it is letting your heart break for someone else and then stepping up to do something.

King said it this way, “I choose to identify (yes, King had a choice—he was middle-class as a child) with the underprivileged, I choose to identify with the poor, I choose to give my life of the hungry, I choose to give my life for those who have been left out of the sunlight of opportunity. […] This is the way I’m going. If it means suffering a little bit, I’m going that way. If it means sacrificing, I’m going that way. If it means dying for them, I’m going that way, because I heard a voice saying, “Do something for others.”

Second, I am committed the work. I am committed to digging into the chaos to fight of justice. I am committed to consolidating political power of black people and other people of color. I am committed to coalition building. Practically, from using the explosive event of the Black Panther premiere to register people to vote to elevate fresh and new candidates. This is the best birthday gift I can give to King on his 89^th birthday. I am on the quest for justice and righteousness and “I Don’t Feel No Ways Tired.”

I am going to close with the words of Paul (2^nd Corinthians 4:7-18):

⁷ Now we have this treasure in clay jars, so that this extraordinary power^g may be from God and not from us. ⁸ We are afflicted in every way but not crushed; we are perplexed but not in despair; ⁹ we are persecuted but not abandoned; we are struck down but not destroyed. ¹⁰ We always carry the death of Jesus^h in our body, so that the life of Jesus may also be displayed in our body. ¹¹ For we who live are always being given over to deathⁱ for Jesus’s sake, so that Jesus’s life may also be displayed in our mortal flesh. ¹² So then, death is at work in us, but life in you. ¹³ And since we have the same spirit of faith in keeping with what is written, I believed, therefore I spoke,^B,j we also believe, and therefore speak. ¹⁴ For we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus will also raise us with Jesus^k and present us with you. ¹⁵ Indeed, everything is for your benefit so that, as grace extends through more and more people, it may cause thanksgiving^l to increase to the glory of God.

¹⁶ Therefore we do not give up.^m Even though our outer person is being destroyed, our inner personⁿ is being renewed day by day. ¹⁷ For our momentary light affliction^o is producing for us an absolutely incomparable eternal weight of glory.^p 18 So we do not focus on what is seen,^q but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

Don’t give up, Don’t give in, Don’t stop dreaming the dream, your dream.

Ernest

Reflection on Dr. King in the Era of Post-Racialism

Dr. King died eighteen years before I was born. My mother was seventeen when he was murdered. Now I sit at my computer on the thirtieth anniversary of the declaration of his federal holiday, in deep conflict about the legacy of the movement.
My conflict is rooted in angst about the willingness to be satisfied with a myth of equality. That it appears that much of the "gains" made in the Civil Rights Movement are being traded for oligarchical shortsighted efforts. That hell, there are two cities in the US in the same state being poisoned intentionally for no real apparent reason. That the prison industrial complex has tripled since 1970. That young black men and women are dying without justice at the hands of bad policing and a justice system designed against them. That success for people of color does not mean that the needle has moved on meter of justice. The scales remain out of balance. So I am not happy or satisfied. I refuse to believe that King's Dream is anyways close to being fulfilled. (The dream was bigger than hypothetical equality. The hypothetical cannot be achieved without the practical. The practical in the eyes of Dr. King was rooted in the economy and in justice. That post-slavery dismissal from the economy only served to empower Jim Crow.)
Many people reduce the legacy of Dr. King to a sermonic tag at the end of the keynote of the March on Washington in 1963. They connect with him saying, "I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character. […] And when this happens, and when we allow freedom ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual: “Free at last! Free at last! Thank God Almighty, we are free at last!" This promotion of the “dream of Dr. King” generally ignores the actual thrust of Dr. King’s Speech and the March on Washington for Jobs and Freedom. The March challenged the role of racism in increased levels of unemployment among Black Americans and the poor. The language of the speech is a harsh and unyielding critique of racism in America. Failing to acknowledge the righteous anger and frustration that those who are oppressed remains a major critique of even the most positive and well-intentioned forms of colorblindness.

So this leaves us to why there is a need to #ReclaimMLK. Unlike Malcolm X or Marcus Garvey, King's message was open for everyone. That in King's vision race is only a factor in the systemic inequity that is America. That it could be claimed by anyone who can perceive to be marginalized. But, you cannot claim marginalization and be part of the perpetuation of marginalization. You cannot claim King and sit on the sidelines and reject the complexity of his legacy. King called America to deeper depths. He challenged our religiosity. He pushed those who sat in judgment to actually practice empathy. We need that same voice now. We need voices pushing the church forward in justice. To reject the overrated nature of social media and viral presence. This what the legacy of Dr. King has to be in this era. That he called Blacks and Whites to the mat.

First, in order to survive this pseudo-post-racial world, the disenfranchised must know who they are. This is not just about cultural acceptance, but knowing where they stand in this society. It is about knowing the rules of the game. The paradigm in the colorblind world is both static and a moving target. It is static because those standing frameworks of identity remain. But, it is a moving target because success can be attained (for a price). The narrative of racism in America is not binary and is very complicated. Knowing this fact, one can maintain hope. Second, despite the barriers, despite the apparent increasing dangers, the bank of justice is not empty. There has been a legacy of fighting for freedom and justice. The context is that as Dr. King said in 1963, the founding creeds of this nation were a "check marked insufficient funds".

Dr. King, Sojourner Truth, Harriet Tubman, W.E.B. Dubois, Booker T. Washington, countless others believed firmly that the bank of justice is not empty and will not give up fighting for rights that belong to me and my legacy. This country's tenuous relationship with race and poverty chains it to the past. 

This state of awareness is what Touré describes as “post-blackness. Post-blackness shifts the focus from a fight for retribution for past harms to obtaining seats at the table of power. He closes his book, Who’s Afraid of Post-Blackness? with these words: “We don’t gain from rejecting America before it rejects us and from shunning voting and education. We progress by getting as much education as we can and launching ourselves into corporations and entrepreneurialism and politics and finance and real estate. We need more and more Blacks sitting at tables of real power. Let’s be like Barack. Let’s get what we want from America in spite of racism. Let’s buy into the promise of America and get what we deserve. Let’s come home. You can fight the power, but I want us to be the power.^”

Progressing up the ladders of success in multiple areas that are stereotypically outside of the reach of minorities is the proper attack against color-blind racism. The pain that we will endure will be very real, but it alone cannot be the sole focus. The cry for retribution has appeared to fall on increasingly deaf ears, so we need to gather political capital to change the system.

It needs to be noted as I close, that just as power has continually adapted throughout history to maintain its control, power will try to reject and marginalize the mobilization of resources. As we continue to speak the truth about racism and racial harm, powers response will often to revert to name calling and misdirection. It must be remembered that color-blind racism is built on a myth, “the idea that race has all but disappeared as a factor shaping the life chances of all Americans. This myth is the central column supporting the house of color blindness. Remove this column and the house will collapse. (Racism Without Racists, Eduardo Bonilla-Silva)^” The truth of the matter remains that colorblindness unchecked is as dangerous as the emperor with no clothes. Just as the young boy that exclaimed the truth; the most powerful tool that we have to contend in this crazy world is the truth.

May the King Live Forever!! Blessings!!

Ernest

Speak Up My Brothers, I Can't Hear You Over The Deafening Silence

Hello again,


It's been a long time since I posted to my LiveJournal and its not because of having a lack of things to say; more because I have focused on not always spilling and pouring out my heart and soul so quickly.  Mind you it was incredibly helpful in the early days in college to just write out my frustrations and I appreciate this as a clearer platform to speak directly to people than even Facebook or Twitter.  It begs the question what brings me back to an old friend?  Well, a senseless murder and an unnecessary cover up.  The murder of 17-year old Trayvon Martin has rightfully become a national and international new story, although it took nearly a month to do so in this world of Twitter and Facebook.


So, let me do a quick recap of this young man's tragic end: Trayvon was visiting some family in a wealthy suburbanite neighborhood in Florida and left the gated community to go to the convenience store across the street in a basic outfit: Air Force Ones, a pair of pants and oh my God a Hoodie.  George Zimmerman, the community watch captain, had been watching him and called the police numerous times because a suspicious young man was walking around his neighborhood.  During the last phone call he is instructed by the dispatcher to wait and to not confront him.  But, Zimmerman decides to follow Trayvon and confronts him with a loaded gun and the next thing that we know is that Trayvon is dying from a gunshot in his chest from Zimmerman's gun with nothing more on his person but a cellphone, some skittles and a can of iced tea.  The police arrive and begin to interview witnesses and begin to shape their understanding of the case but instead of bringing valid charges against Zimmerman they decide to attempt to cover this up.  


So I will stop there on the recap, because that is a miscarriage of justice I want to call out the many leaders in the American Church that remain silent on this issue when this is an issue that could bridge the gap between "The Black Church" and "The White Church".


The Trayvon Martin case reminds me that a "post-racial" America is a pipe dream.  This pipe dream is perpetually played out in segregated churches all over the country.  The deafening silence of predominantly white conservative evangelicals comes in a climate where they yell loudly and protest proudly on the sexy issues that earn them theological brownie points with their constituents (parishioners).  The issues that hit a cord like abortion and gay marriage are easy to take the pot shots and make statements because those are "defining" issues of our time.


It feels like the race issue in America gets treated like the hurdle that has been scaled.  Selectively forgetting and taking for granted that the "hurdle" is forever in front of us.  Race was responded to by legislating inclusiveness by affirming by law rights that were afforded to but stolen from African-Americans, Latinos, Asians, minorities from the start.  But, let us not forget the struggle and that many men and women were abused, close to a million African Americans were lynched from the end of the Civil War til 1960's not counting the abuses of slavery.  This is the hurdle that has to be overcome and it DOES NOT GO AWAY!!!  But, because most of Americans feel that we have already overcome that problem because, personally they have a diverse group of friends (if that's a marker that you take pride in, there might be a problem by the way), race and racial problems are the problem of the minorities.


This is where the silence of many conservative Christian leaders on this issue, but their resounding protest against abortion does not jive.  How is that the life of an unborn child matters more to you (seemingly) than the life or fighting for justice for a young man that was murdered and the system has turned a blind eye?  Do you all really really really believe what Glenn Beck's, assistant editor of his website The Blaze insinuates that the young man who may have been suspended for ten days, must have done something to deserve to be shot? (HuffPost Story on the article).  I get it, it does not affect you directly; but if the tables were turned there would be outrage from the pulpits of America.  What frustrates me, is the same thing that frustrated Dr. King while he wrote The Letter from a Birmingham Jail, the apathy of his brothers to abhorrent injustice was and still is the greater crime.


But, stay in your ivory tower, miss every real opportunity to unite the church of God.  Pick and choose your issues based on sexiness or connection to your congregations and watch the world laugh at us.  But, I choose to get my hands dirty and take the hits that come for the issues that matter.  Stand with us for Trayvon Martin...no its not sexy, there is not a cool stylish bracelet like Joseph Kony 2012.  Stand with us because this is what God requires (Micah 6:8): "He has shown you, O man, what [is] good; And what does the LORD require of you But to do justly, To love mercy, And to walk humbly with your God? (NKJV)"  This injustice threatens all of us and your silence is deafening.  Speak up, challenge your congregations and join the fight.  Finally, please don't take this as you need to defend yourself, all I am asking is that you take a stand, apathy is consent.  The world does not need your defenses, they need you to be willing to live on the edge of sacrifice.  If you aren't willing to do that, fine then say nothing about anything.  Jesus challenges us that salvation is not just for our personal good but for the good of others.  "Saved unto good works (Eph. 2:8-9)":


Mat 25:32-46  Before him will be gathered all the nations, and he will separate people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats.  (33)  And he will place the sheep on his right, but the goats on the left.  (34)  Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world.  (35)  For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me,  (36)  I was naked and you clothed me, I was sick and you visited me, I was in prison and you came to me.'  (37)  Then the righteous will answer him, saying, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you drink?  (38)  And when did we see you a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothe you?  (39)  And when did we see you sick or in prison and visit you?'  (40)  And the King will answer them, 'Truly, I say to you, as you did it to one of the least of these my brothers, you did it to me.'  (41)  "Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels.  (42)  For I was hungry and you gave me no food, I was thirsty and you gave me no drink,  (43)  I was a stranger and you did not welcome me, naked and you did not clothe me, sick and in prison and you did not visit me.'  (44)  Then they also will answer, saying, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or naked or sick or in prison, and did not minister to you?'  (45)  Then he will answer them, saying, 'Truly, I say to you, as you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to me.'  (46)  And these will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous into eternal life."
So now brothers and sisters let us go and do likewise...

Much Love...
ErnDawg